The room was cool and dark, and I began to calm as I sat in silence, thinking through everything and how to interpret it. God is perfect. God is just. God is righteous. God is sovereign, and nothing in my life or anyone else’s is there but that God had allowed it. All things work together for good to them that love God. Those aren’t just optimistic words for those who need a little reassurance that things will be ok. They are timeless words spoken by God to a selective people: a people who have chosen to love God with their heart, soul, mind and strength. It’s easy to trust God when your life is predictable and steady… a familiar home, good friends, loving family, money, and other temporal things. But how will you do when the winds blow and the floods come? On what are you building your life? Where do you put your security? Do you have a firm foundation, so that when all but God is removed, you can rejoice?
Many long, long months followed that pivotal day in January. Our family hung onto raw faith that God would perform His perfect will in Sarah’s life and ours as we decided to keep her on life support and move into a duplex next to a traumatic brain injury hospital in Lincoln, Nebraska. Her recovery was a strenuous process, as she had to learn how to do everything again, things we take for granted, like talking, eating, walking and writing.
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